mosh

so went to a concert this week end and it was awesome!!!! the band is called Brand New. i actually really had no idea who they were, my friends are huge fans though and they invited me along. it was a giant mosh pit!!! the whole mosh thing kinda took me by surprise. first i was surprised, then i was scared, and then i had A LOT of fun!! they didn't let anyone bring water in for some reason so during the concert they were passing cups of water through the crowd (i hope no one had a serious disease...). water was spilling every where!!!! i got soaked! i always like school dances because i really do like to dance, not that weird dace floor rape thing that people do, but just fun dancing. the problem with high school dances is that if your not grinding you are awkwardly standing, and im usually part of the small group that actually move while the rest of my friends stand petrified. that's why this was so awesome!!! everyone was dancing. it was so crowded that its not like a taboo if you brush up against someone. its so dark no one is really watching. its great to dance!!!! i want to dance for hours and just feel all the vibrations from the music boom in my chest! i totally want to go again. it was so surreal. even the violence is okay. sometimes ppl kinda pushed the line and i wanted to just yell them out. but even that was fun. everything was heightened to a point it felt unreal. very unnatural. the whole atmosphere was fabricated. i guess that just says something about our "suburban bubble" concept i have been stewing on. our lives are so dull, and even our out lets are fabricated in the same fashion, but with a different purpose. but then is music just a huge emotional fabrication?? i think some of it is, like those really theatrical rock types, and even grunge, all the things they are singing about are derived from a life style that has been removed from the greater context into a bubble of its own. i really am starting to like tribal and folky music, its like a breath of fresh air, its all based on the environment its set in, not just emotions. i dont know i dont know. reality can be divided into so many categories. everything is real i know, but our perception.. argh!! some day i'll be able to articulate all this, just wait, i'll be able to say it properly. but right now i just confuse my self as im writing.